My name is Cheng-Shiun, Li, and I am 45 years old. I joined the wind music club to study flute in junior high school. I am introverted and not good at expressing, so I have few friends. Usually, I have a good friend at a learning stage. I also have problems with gender identity, and my mind is confused. In high school, I entered the church because of an emotional relationship with a classmate. At that time, I didn’t know that I was sick. The brothers in the church were very tolerant of me, although I am self-willed, but that is how I spent my four years in college.
When I was a soldier, I realized that I could not integrate into the group life of the army at all. In the atmosphere of tense military affairs, the pressure was very high. When I was on vacation, I always returned to the army in a depressed state. Later, when I was sent to the military hospital, it was discovered that I had severe depression, and I also stayed in the hospital for a while.
After I was discharged from the hospital, I didn’t follow the doctor’s orders to take regular medication for a period of time, and I even developed delusions of persecution. I often thought that my family had poisoned me in the meals when I was eating. I didn't even dare to go out of the house; later I accepted the fact that I was sick, and began to return to see a doctor regularly, and took stable medication to cooperate with treatment.
Some patients do not think that they are sick, and are unwilling to cooperate with taking medicine; one of the reasons for this disease is that there is a problem with the secretion of dopamine in the brain, and they must cooperate with drug treatment. Because of this, I slowly returned to work in the society. At first, with the assistance of the government, I worked as a temporary staff member of the school. Later, I went further and started working as a security guard at the school, leading a regular and normal life.
Schizophrenia is not terrible, you need to stand up to face it bravely, cooperate with the medical team, including therapists, psychologists, family members and the society, as long as the condition is stable, you can also do relatively simple jobs in the society; now I worked as a security duty officer on duty at Taoyuan Junior High School.
In my spare time, I also do some things I like, such as writing, playing the flute, etc., to gain self-confidence and increase opportunities to interact with society; I think people with this disease often live in their own In the real world, it is easy to have some wrong associations, so interacting with people can help you get out of this state and live in real life.
I also thank the brothers in the church for introducing me to this Savior Jesus. When I feel uncomfortable, I will call on His name in my heart and pray to Him. I know that He loves me, even though I am sick. He still gives grace and is with me.)